*knock* *knock* Is this thing on? Psssst. Is anyone still out there?
GOOD GOD ya’ll. It’s been more than awhile. Yet again.
Things have been somewhat spiraling out of control lately. With me, with my family and with our business. It seems I cannot get a foothold in this quicksand surrounding me.
The restaurant business is proving to be more challenging than we anticipated and our partnership is on somewhat shaky ground. And by “partnership” I mean myself and the partner on the other side, not my husband. Turns out he and I have very fundamental differences in our ideas of running our business.
It’s been an unending source of stress, exhaustion, frustration and ultimately, resentment. Good times.
While we’re stuck in this quagmire I turn to you, dear readers. I’m at a personal crossroads. At what point do you turn the other cheek and “tune out”, and at what point do you decide that enough is enough and compromising would only mean that you are basically denying your beliefs and convictions and essentially, who you are?
I’m a happy gal, or I used to be anyway. I believe that most people are essentially good. I have faith in this world. You don’t have to agree with me, but that doesn’t mean I’m wrong. I’m tired of being immersed in negativity, pessimism and toxicity. It’s not good for me, or my little optimistic heart.
Don’t make me get all Oprah , but it’s totally stealing my joy.
So. I’m going to make some changes. Sure, happiness is a choice, but can you choose it in a hostile or depressing environment? I submit no, but you can try.
I’m trying and some days it works, but more often than not it doesn’t and I’m just deceiving myself again. I don’t like who I’ve become. Instead of elevating the situation, I’ve let it sink me.
So no more. I’m choosing happiness and sunshine. I’m getting my groove back.
My heart is aligned with my head and I’m moving foward. No looking back.
Stay with me, okay? It’s going to get better, I promise.*
* I’m not sure if I’m talking to you guys, or myself. Either way, it’s good.