*knock* *knock*  Is this thing on?   Psssst.  Is anyone still out there?

*cracking knuckles*

GOOD GOD ya’ll.  It’s been more than awhile.  Yet again.

Things have been somewhat spiraling out of control lately.  With me, with my family and with our business.  It seems I cannot get a foothold in this quicksand surrounding me.

The restaurant business is proving to be more challenging than we anticipated and our partnership is on somewhat shaky ground.  And by “partnership” I mean myself and the partner on the other side, not my husband.  Turns out he and I have very fundamental differences in our ideas of running our business.
It’s been an unending source of stress, exhaustion, frustration and ultimately, resentment.  Good times.

While we’re stuck in this quagmire I turn to you, dear readers.  I’m at a personal crossroads.  At what point do you turn the other cheek and “tune out”, and at what point do you decide that enough is enough and compromising would only mean that you are basically denying your beliefs and convictions and essentially, who you are?

I’m a happy gal, or I used to be anyway.  I believe that most people are essentially good.  I have faith in this world.  You don’t have to agree with me, but that doesn’t mean I’m wrong.  I’m tired of being immersed in negativity, pessimism and toxicity.  It’s not good for me, or my little optimistic heart.

Don’t make me get all Oprah , but it’s totally stealing my joy.

So.  I’m going to make some changes.  Sure, happiness is a choice, but can you choose it in a hostile or depressing environment?  I submit no, but you can try.
I’m trying and some days it works, but more often than not it doesn’t and I’m just deceiving myself again.  I don’t like who I’ve become.  Instead of elevating the situation, I’ve let it sink me.

So no more.  I’m choosing happiness and sunshine.  I’m getting my groove back.
My heart is aligned with my head and I’m moving foward.  No looking back.

Stay with me, okay?  It’s going to get better, I promise.*

* I’m not sure if I’m talking to you guys, or myself.  Either way, it’s good.

3 thoughts on “

  1. ok.. first off you KNOW I'm always reading you, no matter what. Did I tell you I went to your first post here and read from the beginning? Is that fandom or stalking? heeheeheeSecond you must NOT allow another to destroy your joy. But the best way to deter an opposite personality is to laugh at him, in derision if necessary, to keep your sense of separate in his negativity. (lol.. my son would be screaming at me to stop using such big words.. to which I would reply with a sentence like that using as many large syllable words as possible!) There is an oversensitive woman at my gym who got huffy over something I said and she's been ignoring me ever since. I still say Hello for two reasons, I refuse to harbor ill feelings at her in reaction cuz I'm not 4 and cuz it BUGS her a little that I'm not playing her ignore me game.Also, you might remind this man that if he expects others to accept him for who he is, views and all, he should make the effort to do the same whether he thinks they are wrong or not. Kind of a challenge of "agree to disagree"Lastly you might point blank ask him if he's purposefully sabotaging the partnership or just the business? Although I'd save that for when all four of you are together. Its a great way open the discussion of your satisfaction also.Remember this is not only a test of you but a test of HIM. Sometimes people are put in our lives to help us hone ourselves where we are weak but SOMETIMES its because WE are here to hone THEM! So if he wants to be a grumpy asshole remind yourself he might be due a prostrate check and smile hoping his doctor has unusually large fingers!Love you girl!

  2. Anonymous says:

    Awe … I'm sorry, friend!! I really don't know what to tell you. Maybe if you punch him in the throat you would feel better … Not saying I've ever done that, but it works!!! :-/You need to find your happiness, do not let someone take that from you! You are one of the most kind, best people I know … but there comes a point where you need to let go. A little bit of toxic goes a long way, and at some point it's not healthy, especially if it's starting to bring you down.Love you!Betsey

  3. Anonymous says:

    Heather stole my thunder. Nothing can be said better than what she said.Wendy

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